Are you there God? It's me...

It's been so long since I've posted, I don't even know where to begin. This has been the hardest year in my life. My father in law passed away right before my birthday, from a 2-3 year battle with cancer. He was the only father I'd ever really known. I honestly don't remember most of February. I don't think my husband really knows how to deal with emotions, and I almost left him because of it. Women really are much stronger, and when I eventually pulled myself out of a major depression I learned just how strong I could be. I also learned how weak I can be, and that ultimately its my choice between the two. I had days that I was so miserable, I didn't want to live anymore. I pulled myself out of it because I have two small human beings relying on me. So, in hind site my children have saved my life. TBC....