New year, new me?

So.... Time for an update. I've been seeing a therapist and she's really helping me out. I am doing a workbook as homework called "Healing for Damaged Emotions" and I've discovered a few things about myself. For instance, growing up I never felt "important" to anyone. My mom worked all the time and my older sibs were supposed to watch me but they were all in high school so you can imagine how that went. My dad didn't give a shit about me, and my parents did not talk to each other ever, so this is probably how I always end up in similar situations. Sigh. I need a vacation, a break, a moment to myself. I was thinking I should go away for a few days but I'd have to take my kids because I couldn't stand to be away from them right now. Sometimes I feel as tho they are the only people who will ever really love me. Isn't that sad?